Balance

I'm often told that life is about balance; we have to balance the work with the play, listening with talking, thinking with feeling, what we want to do with what we need to do, friends withs boyfriends, and etc. Obviously, at different times, one is superior to the other and just maybe the great obstacle in life that overshadows all of the other details is hope to keep this balance and how to be happy within this balance, even if it means we must live without something for a period of time.
I think deep down we all strive for this balance between making ourselves happy and making others happy. I may only be 20, but I have learned that this is a fine line and a difficult one with which to balance one's self. Perhaps, I'm entirely too consumed in making myself happy that I don't want to think about sacrificing myself to many people. This brings up the thought of a relationship. It's been over a year since my last serious relationship. It scares me to death to get involved with anyone because I don't want to become the girl who loses herself when I'm involved with a guy. I would lose this respect I have for myself; a respect that has taken a while to get. It isn't even that I want a serious relationship; I want fun. I like fun. That sounds dumb to say, but I want a relationship that will be fun and exciting. I don't want to be entirely wrapped up in him and I don't want him to be entirely wrapped up in me that we cannot breathe without each other. Because, lets be real: We all have friends who do that and we all cannot stand when a girl cannot detach herself from her boyfriend's hip to have a girls' movie night.
I know there's a balance and maybe I'm just scared of becoming that girl friend who sucks at being a girlfriend with my boyfriend and a reliable girlfriend to my best girl friends...