a week ago

A week ago today I realized that Kyle and I weren't the same and we wanted different things.
A week ago today I txted Kyle and thus began the break up, but I think the break up had been coming for a while.
A week ago today I started depending on myself to fill that void I felt the moment Kyle and I hung up the phone after that 5:43 second count down.
A week ago to I wanted to cry my eyes out, but realized I didn't have time for that.
A week ago today I wanted to go on the longest run of my life, like to another country.

And this week...
I have successfully been trying to live MY life. The past week I have realized a few things and some of them make me sad, but then again it also makes me happy to realize that I can move on and be a better person (I hope.) I realize that I don't honestly have time for anyone else in my life and I have to be selfish and be my first priority. It's just the way it needs to be right now, right or wrong it is what it is. I realized that I have an amazing support system and yes, Kyle was amazing while it lasted but now- I get by with a little help from my friends. They truly are amazing.
This past weekend...
I went to VT for an overdue visit to see my best friend and had an amazing time. There were a few moments of sadness, but really I had a great time and I should have gone sooner.

I know going home is going to be the real challenge, but I made this choice for a reason and it is what is best for me and him as well. It is just going to take some getting used to, I do believe.

"You have to take the best from whatever the situation is and go on."- Jimmy Buffett
... and btw, I'm going to his concert with my girlfriends in September!